Mental Gymnastics and cancer

I have been diagnosed with thyroid cancer a few months ago, and recently have had my symptoms worsen. I'm going in for more tests in the next couple of weeks but for now, I need a place to dump my thoughts.

I will still be releasing all of the music I have written but with the state of my brain right now, my blood is going to be my safe place. Not many people I know follow me here and maybe one day my family will discover this page, but for now, I have to decompress.

This journey has been a very isolating, very humbling experience and I hope that whatever happens in the future, that some positivity comes out of it.

But for now, this will be a story of my mental journey while dealing with throat cancer.

As a singer, it's terrifying. I felt like I finally got my life on track with formalising my experience by achieving a Bachelor of Audio with SAE. And right when I have built my studio into something that I can work with professional clients on, it feels like all that effort has just gone to waste.

I have noticed that my close friends have been distant, whereas people I didn't expect to be present, have. Life is definitely an unpredictable rollercoaster of feelings, thoughts, and emotions but for me right now I feel like my world is caving in, right when I felt like I was finally getting everything on track.

I still intend to release my orchestral album and other collaborations that l've been working on in the meantime, so that will be out in the future.

Ultimately I know I cannot control the number of days I have on this earth and for me right now. Time is the most precious commodity I have. So to family, friends, and anyone else who would like to see me before things get worse please do so.

So between now and then, I am going to post my thoughts here. The mental gymnastics of coming face to face with your own demise, as only a creative can.

See you on the other side.

Jase x