Life has been unrelenting these past two years since being diagnosed with cancer, losing ‘friends’, my career, my savings, and my sanity. While I have experienced depression and anxiety at times in the past, this period of life has been consistently unforgiving and isolating - especially after finding out that my type of cancer and treatment sees a 20% increased risk of depression and 40% increased risk of ‘suey-side’. Great. Also, very accurate description of me right now. S

Fifty. 50. Fiddy. Thank you God for this precious gift of life. Thank you for each and every day that you give us on this earth, for that I am so very grateful always. While today is memorable for me in many ways, friends are experiencing today much differently, and I send them much love and strength because life is so very precious. Today is also my Grandmother Yana’s birthday. Today three years ago, I released ‘You and Me’. Today ten years ago, I spent my 40th in SYD solo.

I think everyone just finally gets to a point in their lives where they are like ‘really? Is that it?’ Time is zooming by so fast and those childhood dreams still dance in my head, taunting for me to achieve them. Sure, I’ve had some success via recognition, awards and accolades but that hasn’t translated into success, money or continued work. It feels like those things are just hot air, and like a balloon filled with hot air, it must come down. So do those dreams matter? If

When breaking away from the clutches of social media and smartphone entertainment, you really do start to see the effects of long term use. I used to wake up, grab my phone, turn off the alarm and open one of the many apps to ‘connect’ with the outside world. Who’s been naughty? Who’s been nice? Getting stuck in a doom scrolling loop and realising an hour has gone by is now a thing of the past. While I wake up, and grab my phone - now its just to turn off the alarm. I look at

One of the many things I love about myself is the sublime power to gaslight myself into gaslighting myself. The delicate art of sabotaging your own brain comes from loss along the way; where friendships disappear, the absence of Saturday night company, the rejection from society because you don’t repeat last nights talking points from the flat screen social conditioning machine. The constant repetition, the put downs and the snide remarks don’t come from a scorned lover or a

Today is a special day as it marks one year since cancer was removed from my throat. As an actor, singer and voice over artist, this has been a huge mental journey. I am deeply grateful to the doctors, nurses, and medical staff who made this journey as gentle as possible. I have a scar on my neck that is slowly fading, a reminder that I am still here. While this journey does not end as I am not considered “cancer free”, it reminds me to keep moving forward and to fight for th

I am often asked why I do not use my platform to comment on politics or current events. There are many reasons, but one of the most important is that, as an actor and music artist, I do not believe it is my place to position myself as an authority on political matters. My role is not to instruct people on what to think, but to invite them to feel, reflect, and question. I choose to express my perspective through art, through performance, music, and poetry. Art allows space fo

Those who continually sprout their ‘authenticity’ and ‘continual improvement’, are ones that suffer from restless avoidance. Berlin based behavioural psychologist Dr Lena Hoffmann found that people obsessed with self improvement ‘…don’t want to heal. They want to become someone who never got hurt.” They grew up believing love had to be earned, so now stillness feels unsafe. If they’re not “fixing” themselves, they feel unworthy. Hoffmann called it The Berlin Paradox: “The hea

27th September 2025 * Psalm 113 * Be kind to yourself, always. * Always be kind to others. * Make time for the ocean. * Protect all living beings; from us to the bee’s and our furry pawed friends. * Never relinquish your morals. Ever. * Always speak your truth. You have one voice - use it. * Help those in need. * Banish those who use/abuse you. * You control your mind, not the Powers pulling strings via devices you’ll die caressing. Choose. * You should have listened to Princ

I need to step away. Take a breath. Refocus on what the world distracted me from. I’m going back to working out my memory and looking at the world more intently without relying on a GPS signal or maps. I want to ask for directions, to make new discoveries and to share fresh air. Online, I fought many final bosses and won, but then another boss comes in a different form and slightly more powerful. Instantly impressed with the vast worlds created by amazing visual artists, disc

Today, July 30th is one year to the day it was confirmed I had throat cancer. One year. Where does the time go? So much has changed since then and while each day is a learning process, I am so very grateful to have had one more year since those fateful words were uttered. While this journey has not been easy, nothing of value or substance ever is. So while my head has had cloudy days and my heart has been filled with sadness at so much loss, I have to remain focused on the po

Anyone else tired of fake influencers? I keep receiving spam from social boost accounts trying to get me to purchase follows and likes, and seeing how some people I know online are doing this type of fraud, it’s time to call that shit out! It seems in this day and age, low vibrational liars choose to advertise their narcissism online, while trying to hack the system believing they will rake in the cash by posting pictures of themselves and some random product occasionally. Pl

Today is the last day of 2024.   I wish each of you a very Happy New Year - this has been a big year for everyone and I hope what you plan to create in 2025 will be everything you need it to be.   To everyone who has been on my cancer journey with me; family, friends and former strangers, I am so very grateful that I have people like you who are concerned for my welfare – thank you.   Life is a rollercoaster. One day, you’re on top of the world and the next, you’re feeling yo

I don’t know how to say this or describe this but I’ll try. I never realised just how discombobulating the following days and weeks are after surgery. Could it be the anesthesia? Or dealing with the huge impact of trauma that surgery brings. I don’t feel like myself at the moment, like I am in some timeline that I am not meant to be in.  Or that I am dreaming this existence while still under anesthesias embrace. I am having weird episodes; seeing things out of the corner of m

Today I am rededicating my song 'Friend Like You' from my 2022 album 'Portals' to all of those beautiful high vibrational souls who kept their word and their promise to be there for me during my current cancer journey. Friendships ebb and flow, and once you realise that you can only move to a higher vibrational state once you shed toxic friendships with low vibrational NPC’s; that includes bringing old narratives into a new positive state. I hope you enjoy my song F.L.Y. as

Tomorrow I head into surgery to have this cancer on my throat removed. Here are three things you didn’t expect to happen after finding out you have cancer: 1. Friends You will quickly find out who the low vibrational people in your life are who promise to be supporting and end up deserting you. This situation has allowed the flux of friendships and I am so grateful for the positive angels who have presented themselves to be kind, loving and genuine. 2. Shifting Priorities Can

I have been diagnosed with thyroid cancer a few months ago, and recently have had my symptoms worsen. I'm going in for more tests in the next couple of weeks but for now, I need a place to dump my thoughts. I will still be releasing all of the music I have written but with the state of my brain right now, my blood is going to be my safe place. Not many people I know follow me here and maybe one day my family will discover this page, but for now, I have to decompress. This jou

Nothing can prepare you for the heights and depths your mind takes after being diagnosed with cancer. I’m not sure I recognise myself anymore. I know I’m not mentally where I thought I would be after five months and yet here we are. They say that progress never comes easy. Loss of physicality, perception, and repeated internal mea culpas bend and shape you into a new existence where the only valued commodity is TIME. Nothing else matters. At all. Time must be spent wisely, wi

First and foremost, all praise be to Yeshua - The Father, the Son and the Holy Spirit. Without Him, I am nothing. With Him, I am everything. The working title of this album was ‘Zamar’ - a Hebrew word which means ‘to sing, to praise’ however in the absence of vocals (bar one track), this title didn’t feel appropriate. After soul-searching, I landed on the title ‘Liminal’, which translates into ‘a place between spaces’. For me, this is an apt title for an album that is so dear

I came across these beautiful words by Anthony Hopkins recently and this resonated with me deeply. In a world in flux, tension and lack of purpose, it is so important to be the positive influence and change you want to see in this world. Without further introduction, I hope this vibes with you as it did me. Jase xo ----- ′′Let go the people who are not prepared to love you. This is the hardest thing you will have to do in your life and it will also be the most important thin